Jenzee the Chimjenzee

ya know...

2011-06-04T09:52:00.000-07:00

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I arent suppose to be in this way.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have take my car key, and drive faraway from where I am standing right now.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have ignoring everything and start worrying about myself.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have planned my whole life with the written track.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have some spaces for myself to breath.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have learn what is going on and why is it going on.

Seriously, I am tired of this life...

But I'm keep moving on...

Ignoring all the consequences, I see nothing right infront of me.
I see the mist of questions and it is blurring my vision.

Suddenly everything turns dark.

I saw someone. Black in color.
Average sized guy.
Isn't it me? Yes, it is...

He turned to me, and grinned evilly.
From his eyes, I saw sorrow, hatred, unsatisfied, and cold glare,
shoots directly towards my eyes.

I stood, unable to talk anything,
full with questions, I've asked myself,
Is that me? Yes, it is...

When I tried so hard to move forward,
to approach him, he continuously grinning evilly,
started to fade away right infront of my eyes.

I struggled, panic, out of control,
I yelled, I reject, suffered from the pain,
like arrows pierced through the body.

Yes, I represents the bright side of me,
he represents the dark side of me.
But we lived in the same body for almost 20 years.

Sometimes, when we met our darkest side of ourselves,
we have to be strong and overcome it.

But, what if we failed?
The darkest side of us,
controlled the bright side of us...

Nobody knows...

200110 顛倒

2010-01-11T09:51:00.000-08:00

生活習慣顛倒了
人生顛倒了
為什么呢？

盡管世界多么的顛倒，
我們就是不能跟著它顛倒。

也許這是上天的安排，
上天的策劃，
讓一切為考驗。

外星人爸爸，梁幕橙，曉樂。
你，我，他。
都是一樣，
就是要經得起考驗～

只想說，
不管路有多艱難，
別忘了有我的存在。
只要你愿意讓我和你一起分擔，
我也可以當你的支撐棟梁。

【加油】

jenzee

100110 發現

2010-01-09T22:14:00.000-08:00

才發現我電腦的歌
就是少了JJ的歌。

好啦，回到新家了，
我的JJ的全部專輯都還在，
就慢慢Rip進電腦吧！

然后慢慢炸歌。
從第一到第七張專輯，都不知道要怎么Rip。
炸到～

100110 真心話

2010-01-09T08:51:00.000-08:00

坦白說，我有點累了。
坦白說，感覺是時候松手。
坦白說，自由還是你的。
坦白說，寂寞還是寂寞，永遠無法忘記寂寞的感覺。

不是英雄，不讀三國。
若是英雄，怎么能不懂寂寞。

我不是英雄，我也不是曹操，但是，我懂得寂寞。
我沒讀三國，不懂三國志，但是，我知道什么是寂寞。
我毅力再強，但是，還是抵不過寂寞。
不管用盡什么辦法，寂寞依然在那兒。

多么想要一個背對背擁抱，
但是，連一個真正的擁抱，我依然得不到。
多么想要背對背擁抱，
但是，無法找到很好的對象來擁抱。

原來我只是突然累了，
原來我不說了，
原來我撐著，撐到麻了，
原來我不愛了。

走了一個，忘了一個，
才懂眼淚對自己最殘忍。
但是，眼淚依然流了出來。
怎么停，也停止不住淚流。

地震時你想和誰擁抱？
什么是生命中的美好？
我不知道。真的什么都不知道。
尋找路途中，迷茫了的靈魂，誰來帶路？
我真的不知道。

真心話，我不知道要怎么用口來表達。
真心話，我不知道說了你會不會收到。
真心話，我不知道自己還會不會堅強。
真心話，我不知道意義時候那么重要。

但是，我的真心話，就是如此......
希望你收到我的真心話，體會我的寂寞。

P/S: 有沒有人發覺是JJ+張祖誠的混合體呢？（曹操+背對背擁抱+突然累了+一個又一個+加油+真心話【vick】）

09012010 Way to Go

2010-01-08T08:51:00.000-08:00

Today is Saturday, my last day in Sitiawan after my 3 weeks break..

Many things had happened during this particular 3 weeks,

1st, Nan Hwa Band 30th Passing Out Ceremony,

2nd, Went KL for JJFC gathering and could be considered as farewell party to my lovely Jessipi whom going to US for furthur studies.

3rd, have some gatherings during Xmas with my beloved ex-classmates (4SD and 5SC).

4th, have so much fun with my dearest pals, Keith, Yen Li, Anson Gor Gor, Minxin and so on...

5th, getting my JJ Lin's 7th Album, <100days>

Well.. Biological clock on mine was seriously distorted where days are nights and nights are days.
I managed to sleep on4am or 5am in the morning and wake up in the afternoon and skipped almost a week of breakfast. (No wonder i'm so skinny..)

Guess i'm gonna adjust it back when my return to Penang..

Since next semester is a short semester, gonna change myself to more sensitive towards surroundings, keep the naive face and show the mature face. Be smart on study and be hardworking during the process..

Seriously, i was thinking like I'm a traveler, not time traveler of course..
Okay, this is what's gonna happened this coming weekends:

Penang>>Sitiawan>>Penang>>KL>>Penang>>Sitiawan

People in facebook are telling, : Are you kidding? Ain't you'll gonna be tired?
Seriously, traveling is nothing to me, as i enjoyed.. =)

Well, off now.. See ya..

~Music-wanna-be Jenz

07012010 Bloggy

2010-01-07T07:20:00.000-08:00

Well, at first I thought that I'm going to use Chinese as my primary language.
But, I couldn't.

So what? Life's moving on. Use English then.. Haha!

What happened to myself recently?
I'm wondering as well..
The feeling is really indescribable, sort of abstract? I don't know as well..

Have you ever wondering that your De Javus came alive?
Yes, I do. Well, aint bother about that, i doesnt predict future..

Well, i guess my blog isnt a place for me to say ohh, i do this, i do that, i do those today ; oh, when is my school reopen, unpleasant with this unpleasant with that.. what a holy crap..

Hope that i blog out what I feel and what I think.. Here..

Well..
I am Jenson, 19 coming-to-be, a Mass Commer, Pikachu-Lover, Internetoholic..

Welcome you to add me on facebook
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Or my twitter
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~Music-wanna-be Jenz