ya know...

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I arent suppose to be in this way.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have take my car key, and drive faraway from where I am standing right now.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have ignoring everything and start worrying about myself.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have planned my whole life with the written track.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have some spaces for myself to breath.

Ya know,
sometimes I just felt that I should have learn what is going on and why is it going on.


Seriously, I am tired of this life...


But I'm keep moving on...


Ignoring all the consequences, I see nothing right infront of me.
I see the mist of questions and it is blurring my vision.

Suddenly everything turns dark.

I saw someone. Black in color.
Average sized guy.
Isn't it me? Yes, it is...

He turned to me, and grinned evilly.
From his eyes, I saw sorrow, hatred, unsatisfied, and cold glare,
shoots directly towards my eyes.

I stood, unable to talk anything,
full with questions, I've asked myself,
Is that me? Yes, it is...

When I tried so hard to move forward,
to approach him, he continuously grinning evilly,
started to fade away right infront of my eyes.

I struggled, panic, out of control,
I yelled, I reject, suffered from the pain,
like arrows pierced through the body.

Yes, I represents the bright side of me,
he represents the dark side of me.
But we lived in the same body for almost 20 years.

Sometimes, when we met our darkest side of ourselves,
we have to be strong and overcome it.

But, what if we failed?
The darkest side of us,
controlled the bright side of us...

Nobody knows...